summer is for the body
a lookback at summer
when i started practicing seasonal living for the psyche,
for my inner development through the cycle of descent and rising,
i knew that summer was for being present in the body.
however i had not yet embodied this lesson.
my disassociation tendencies allowed me to live in the past or future.
present in the now moment with my mind,
but reluctant to participate in activities because my body was not perfect.
cheering everyone else at their squeals of delight,
yet never allowing myself to do the activity that tore laughter out of my body.
this was the opening this summer.
the surrender to go there and see what happens.
just like that summer came and went.
a summer of core memories.
the first trip where the kids are old enough
where i did not need to leave the long line to a rollercoaster because a child needed to go potty.
no meltdowns because snack time was 15 minutes late.
best of all, everyone was tall enough to go on all the rides.
as a mom, it was divine.
i tasted freedom again.
the knowing i can add activities i enjoy.
the ones that refuel my battery.
the things i wanted to do mattered and were considered.
i could feel my system breathe into this new reality.
it was empowering for my kids too.
watching them enter graciously into their own selves.
making decisions. coordinating. co-creating as a family.
summer is for listening to the body more intimately.
this time, something shifted in this endeavour.
i entered with an openness to understand my unique way of hearing my body’s whispers.
i imagined i would start working out again.
fix the systems that my anxiety threw off balance through food.
eventually, it did happen. not in the way i expected it to.
but i followed the breadcrumbs anyway.
i am doing a supportive exercise plan i simply love.
i walk our new puppy every evening.
i am back in the kitchen enjoying cooking again.
here’s what’s wild.
my husband got us a second hand Brigade gas stove.
and it’s been a game changer.
reflecting back to the beginning of the season,
where i shared fire is not something that comes naturally to me,
it was clear I can ask for the support of others.
my husband getting us a gas store where i literally cook over fire every day
is one of those miracle moments where i feel how incredibly supported i am.
how even though i’m not sure how i’m going to get there.
i do my part to co-create and the universe meets me with exactly what i need.
in practicing seasonal living with the cycle of descent and rising
each season i bring myself closer to my original self.
each lesson i am working with gets handed off to the next
today, on the autumn equinox,
what fire set in motion,
earth will take over.
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from the underworld with love,
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